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Mistakes.. they are meant to be learned from, right? Well, why is it that I keep making the same type of mistakes over and over again? I really need you guys to pray for me. I am struggling right now with a particular sin in my life. It has had a hold on me since I was 16 years old. I always have the best of intentions. I even go a few months without making this mistake, but somehow it always ends up happening again. I don't understand. I know it is because I need to be in the Word more and rely on God more. This "Sin" is affecting many different parts of my life... my relationships with friends, my quiet times and my relationship with God in general. It really stinks. I want to be able to deal with it and not have to worry about it anymore. I don't understand why it is so hard for me. I don't want to be like this and have this hanging over my head. Please pray for me. I need strength and patience and most importantly, self-control. Sorry that this was random, but I definitely need ya'll to keep me in your prayers. I don't ask often and certainly wouldn't post it on my blog if it wasn't important.

On another note, I had a great Easter. I spent it with Robert and his mom. She is such a sweetheart and I love her dearly. Then, Robert and I spent a rainy afternoon watching "Golden Girls."My parents bought me butterfly sheets and chocolate for Easter.. Cadbury cream eggs.. yum yum!!! I also went on a double date with my best friend and the guy she is dating on Friday night. Then, on Saturday, we went shoe shopping and out to eat. Anyways, I will go now and take a nap. I am so tired.. I had a busy weekend. Peace out!!

Drama, Drama, Drama

I think it is funny how we are supposed to be "adults," but so many times we still act like we are in high school. I am the victim of gossip right now. Well, maybe not gossip, but talking behind the back kind of stuff. I mean, I thought that adults were supposed to talk to each other about their problems, not call ten other people about their problems with other people. I mean, I am guilty of it too. As a matter of fact, we all are. I just wish that we would realize that the solution to the problem lies with the person that you have the problem with. Anyways, I am kinda bummed out about this, have had a headache nonstop for two days, and just made a 69 on my stats test. It's turning out to be a crappy day.
But, as Johnny always says, situations can make you bitter or better, it's all about your attitude. So, I have decided to use it to make me better. I have a very fun weekend planned and I am looking forward to it. Tonight, Robert and I are going on a double-date with Anne and Daniel. I have always wanted to go on a double-date with my best friend and now it is finally happening. We are going to RoadHouse and then back to Anne's house to watch a movie. Tomorrow, I am going shoe shopping with Robert (he really needs a new pair of shoes) and then to Dave and Buster's with Kelly and Tori.. we haven't had a girls day in forever. It will be good to catch up and hang out with them. Then, on Easter, Robert and I are going to get up early and go to Union Point, go to church with his mom and have lunch with her. He doesn't get to see her a lot, but they are very close. I love that woman. I loved her the first five minutes I met her. I talked to her last night, she encouraged me, gave me Bible verses and prayed with me on the phone.. She is truly a Godsend.
So, I am going to make the best of my weekend, hanging out with friends and family, and pray alot. I thank God for Easter and for dying on the cross and for rising on the third day, so that we could live and serve Him and spend eternity with Him one day. I will be thinking a lot about my mom this weekend and Easters as a child.. Easter egg hunts, baskets filled to the brim with candy and toys, chocolate bunnies, The Easter Bunny, dinner with family, etc. It truly is a great time of the year. So, to all of my fellow blogger friends out there.. Have the most blessed Easter ever, remember what it is all about, and thank God for the many blessings he gives us!!!

If you're Happy and you know it.....

Hey Guys!! I am very H-A-P-P-Y with life in general. I feel as if I have reached a point in my life where everything may not be going exactly like I want them to, but I am happy because I am a bigger and better person because of them. There are a lot of changes about to take place in my life, which is scary and exciting, all at the same time. I am applying for my first full-time job this week.. being a parapro in August, when school starts back. I am mailing my application back in today and my three references are soon to follow. If I get this full time job, I am moving out of my parents house and in with my friend Beth, into her grandmothers 100 year old house.. it is beautiful and rent will only be $150/month. Where else do you find rent that cheap? It will be good for me. I need to get out on my own and enter the "real world." As much as I love living at home and being able to spend time with my family, I am an adult and have to start acting like one. Robert and I are getting along nicely. He is an amazing guy. I am just happy. I have memorized like five new verses and am currently reading in the book of Habbakuk, which I barely knew existed, until last week. It is amazing. It speaks of the nations and God's blessings on them. So, guys and gals, you are looking at one happy camper. I love you all and will talk to you all soon. Gotta head to work. Peace out!!

goodbye spring break.. hello stats

I just spent the entire week of my Spring Break hanging out with Robert, friends and family. I watched "The Pacifier," bought a new outfit, got a hair cut and color, sang karaoke, taught a friend how to line dance, played the worst two hours of Maffia ever, babysat, helped someone move, played chauffeur to my brother, picked up food and medicine for my parents who have the flu, given love advice to a dozen people, memorized two more verses and eaten more chocolate cadbury cream eggs in one week than I have in my entire life. My Spring Break was awesome, but, unfortunately, it is over and I have to step back into reality and enter back into the world of Statistics. I have a test on Wednesday and needless to say, I didn't crack a book over break, so I will be spending the next two nights cramming and memorizing formulas, but that's ok. My spring break was exhausting, exciting, fun and crazy, all rolled into one. It is great to have a break every once in a while.

prayers, please!!!

I have a prayer request, along with Heather. My sister in law told me that my brother was in the middle of an attack in Iraq and was almost hurt and/or killed. The good news is that he is back in Bakuda and the attacks were in Falusia. He got promoted. He is the top armorer in his entire division. Just keep him in your thoughts and prayers, please. Have a great day.

Times they are a changing

I really feel like I am at a stage in my life where many exciting things are happening and are going to happen in the near future. My memory verse for this past week was Exodus 33:19, which says," I will cause my goodness to pass in front of you and I will proclaim my name, The Lord, in your presence. I will have mercy on whom I will have mercy and compassion on whom I will have compassion." God's been showing His goodness to me a lot lately. I feel as if change is about to take place. And I mean, major change, more than a new boyfriend and a new haircolor, both of which are awesome, though. I feel as if God is about to knock my socks off and bless me beyond measure. I am just going to sit back, relax and enjoy the ride!!!

On a random note, I have started reading the second Birth order book and I must say that is pretty stinkin awesome. It explains a lot about the way I am and why I act the way I do. Thanks Freddie for letting me borrow it. Well, gotta get back to work and make the money to pay the bills.. wow, I feel really old when I say that. Peace out and holla at ya'll lata!!

Mother Dearest

So, I have been thinking about my mom a lot lately. It makes me so happy when I hear my friends talk about being close to their moms. Two of the girls at DNow told me all about how their mom was their best friend and they do everything together. It makes me happy and sad at the same time. Happy for them that they can be that close to their mom and share everything with them. Sad in knowing that my mom and I were never very close, and now I don't have her here to change that.
Not to get all mushy, but I really miss her. I miss her spending eight hours one day in the summer teaching me how to make a bridge with cards. I miss her cooking, her laugh and her contagious smile. I remember her coming to every football game-home and away-for four years, to see the same half time show and hear the same music every week, because she was so proud of me. The last football game of my Junior year, she was there. She had already been diagnosed with Lymphoma and was taking chemo treatments. It was freezing cold. She sat in the car, because she was too weak to walk up the bleachers, but she was there. She was my chaueffer, my shoulder to lean on and my friend. Even though I was always a daddy's girl and my mom and I never had that "close knit"Mother-Daughter relationship, I know without a doubt that she loved me. The last thing she said to me, while lying in a hospital bed at Athens Regional Medical Center, in ICU, on life support was that she loved me and was proud of me.
Even though my mom and I never had heart to hearts, went on shopping sprees or out to lunch together, we had this unspoken bond. The most awesome memory I have of my mom is seeing her get saved a month before she passed away. And knowing that I was a part of it. It has been five and a half years, some days it feels like yesterday and some days it feels like an eternity. My last memory of her, before the hospital was giving her a hug and a kiss and telling her that I loved her, before I went to see the fireworks with my cousin and brother. I thank God every day that the last thing that my mom said to me was that she loved me. Some people don't get that, ya know? I miss her so much, and I know that if she were here right now that we would be the best of friends. But, I also know that God is in contro and that she is with Him, which is far greater than anything that can happen here on Earth.
I guess what I am trying to say with all this is that your parents are very important and they won't always be here. My mom was 37 when she died and left behind a 17 year old, a15 year old and an 8-year old. My little brother will never have as many memories of my mom as I did, and that will haunt me for the rest of my life. Didn't mean to get all mushy, I am just speaking from the heart. I love you mom and miss you more than words can describe!!!!

Disciple Now weekend!!

This past weekend was crazy, tiring, fun, touching and emotional all at the same time. I was a co-leader for Disciple Now at Hebron Baptist Church in Dacula. Beth and I had ten 8th grade girls. We stayed at a host home, taught the girls lessons, did mission projects, recreation and Two Bare Feet led worship and the chaplain for The Georgia Bulldoggs was the guest speaker. I was really scared at first about teaching teenagers, since I am used to teaching preschool and kindergarten, but God really taught me some amazing things before the weekend was over. The girls in our group were very mature spiritually and they were asking a lot of thought provoking questions that Beth and I could not answer. They wanted to be involved in the lessons, were very outspoken, and participated well. I was so impressed with them. For our mission project, we boxed up food for a food center in West Virginia, where the youth will be going on Spring Break. These people are very poor and don't have alot. The project taught us team work and how to help others. It was awesome. Around 20 kids got saved at the meetings, and more got saved in their groups. It was rockin. I only got about seven hours sleep the entire weekend, but it was so worth it. I will definitely help out with it again next year.

Disciple Now weekend!!

This past weekend was crazy, tiring, fun, touching and emotional all at the same time. I was a co-leader for Disciple Now at Hebron Baptist Church in Dacula. Beth and I had ten 8th grade girls. We stayed at a host home, taught the girls lessons, did mission projects, recreation and Two Bare Feet led worship and the chaplain for The Georgia Bulldoggs was the guest speaker. I was really scared at first about teaching teenagers, since I am used to teaching preschool and kindergarten, but God really taught me some amazing things before the weekend was over. The girls in our group were very mature spiritually and they were asking a lot of thought provoking questions that Beth and I could not answer. They wanted to be involved in the lessons, were very outspoken, and participated well. I was so impressed with them. For our mission project, we boxed up food for a food center in West Virginia, where the youth will be going on Spring Break. These people are very poor and don't have alot. The project taught us team work and how to help others. It was awesome. Around 20 kids got saved at the meetings, and more got saved in their groups. It was rockin. I only got about seven hours sleep the entire weekend, but it was so worth it. I will definitely help out with it again next year.

Call me Dr. Love

Dr. Love is my new nickname for my Hebronite friends in Dacula. The second everyone found out that Robert and I had started dating, everyone (6 people in 3 days), started calling me, telling me about their crushes and asking for my advice. As if dating someone for three days makes me a love expert. I listened to their gushing romanticisms and rantings and then I told them that if they like someone they should tell them. We are all adults here, it shouldn't be that hard, right? Then, I looked back on my life, at how many times I have wanted to tell someone how I feel, whether it was a guy I liked, someone who hurt my feelings, or someone I didn't neccessarily agree with and how I chickened out, got scared, tucked in my tail and ran. I realized that I am in no way, shape or form the person that needs to tell others how to handle this kind of situation. Although, I am very glad that my friends trust me enough to bare their souls to me and tell me their deepest desires and emotions. It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. So, from now on, just call me Dr. Love.

Ok, complete random subject change.. I am good at that :>) So, this weekend I am going to be doing Disciple Now with Hebron Baptist Church. Beth and I are in charge of 12 8th grade girls. We sleep at a host home, teach the girls lessons, do community service projects and recreation. Two Bare Feet will be doing a concert and the chaplain for The Georgia Bulldoggs will be speaking. I am so excited. It will be very exhausting, but life-changing I am sure. I was a little nervous about doing this, but when I met the girls last night, I became super excited. They are so sweet and they just started talking to me right away. I am sure that we will have late nights and emotional days, but I KNOW that God's hand is on it and that He will touch the hearts and lives of those students, as well as the leaders. I am sure that I will learn more from the girls than they will from me. Just keep us in your prayers and I will keep you posted. Peace out!!!