last post

Hey Guys.
This will be my last post for a while, unless I failed my Statistics Class and have to come back to GC and take it next semester. I will try to post every once in a while, when I am at a computer. Just wanted to let you know. I am feeling a little sick and do not like not knowing what I am going to do next in my life. I am very organized, structured person and love planning things. It drives me crazy to think that I have no clue what I am going to do. Hope to see you all soon.

About Me!!

I got this idea from Heather to write out 100 things about me that you may or may not no. So, grab some popcorn and a coke and enjoy the show:


1. I love to talk!!
2. Talk on the phone
3. Talk in person
4. Talk to my dog, it doesn't matter!!
5. My mom is my hero
6. She passed away five years ago
7. she had Lymphoma Cancer
8. She was only 37 years old
9. I hate needles
10. and pain
11. and blood
12. and spiders
13. and snakes
14 and anything that is creepy and crawly
15. Kenny Chesney is hot!!
16. peanut butter, mayonnaise and banana sandwiches are delicious
17. I eat ketchup on everything, well, almost everything
18. I love Chick-Fil-A
19 and Starbucks
20 and Wendy's 99 cent value meal
21. Psalm 139 is my favorite
22. "It is better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all."
23. Mistakes are meant to be learned from, not repeated.
24. I am obsessed with butterflies
25. and purple
26. My dream is to visit Costa Rica
27. and get my poetry published
28. Jesus is the Lover of my Soul
29. I cry at every movie I watch
30. I have a poodle
31. She weighs six pounds
32. and is spoiled rotten
33. I always wished I had a sister
34. But got three brothers instead
35. Golden Girls is my favorite sitcom
36. Maya Angelou is my favorite poet
37. I know every word to every nursery rhyme
38. and every Barney Song
39. and every theme song from every TV show I ever watched.
40. The Price Is Right is the best game show ever.
41. I have a secret crush
42. I love to ride Harleys
43. and wear leather
44. I have serious issues with intolerance
45. People who have babies and don't take care of them sadden me
46. I love kids
47. and puppies
48 and chocolate
49 Billy Graham is my hero
50. I love the Gaithers
51. 1 Corinthians 13 is my favorite chapter in the entire Bible
52. Alex Van Martin is the funniest guy I know
53. My best physical attribute is my smile
54. I have a hard time with confrontation
55. and saying NO
56. and hurting people's feelings
57. I love Elvis Presley
58. and Lynrd Skynrd
59. I know every word to The Dirty Dancing movie
60. Spongebob Squarepants is my favorite Cartoon
61. Oh, and Veggietales
62. My Cd's and DVD's are alphabetized
63 I am an organizational neat freak
64. I didn't learn how to swallow pills until 2 years ago
65. I didn't get my driver's license until 3 months ago
66. My cars name is Bonita Blanca
67. I have every card that anyone has ever given me since middle school
68. I have never been in the hospital or had a broken bone
69 which is amazing, considering that I am very clumsy
70. I fell every year of my high school career
71. I had a crush on the same guy for 7 years
72 and he never knew
73 I have an 11 ft closet filled to the brim
74. with clothes I got off of clearance racks,
75 sales racks, or thrift stores
76, Walmart is my favorite store in the universe
77. Love Spell by Victoria Secret is my favorite scent
78. I am a mean Scrabble Player
79 I love mushrooms
80 I recently became a Georgia fan
82 Go Dawgs!!
83 Statistics is the most horrible class ever
84. I am definitely a daddy's girl
85. I wish I were taller
86 and that I were more athletic
87 I am a social butterfly
88 and love hanging out with my friends
89. My dad is an ordained minister
90. InnerG and Chicopee rock my face off
91. My favorite band-hands down.. Finish Line
92. I love turtlenecks and sweaters
93. I am extremely cold natured
94 I love Joyce Meyer and Beth Moore
95 I am tenderhearted and very emotional
96. I don't understand the male species, and probably never will
97. I am a word search fein
98. I am so glad that I made this list
99. I am so glad that you are reading it
100. and I love you all very much.

God Rocks my Face off!

Hey Guys!!
I just wanna tell you how much God rocks my face off. As you all know, this is my last week at GC and my last week at my job. I am starting to job hunt. I have been freaking out about money. I have a car insurance payment due in January and a Credit Card Bill to pay off. I will get one more pay check and that is it. I have no idea how I am going to pay it all right? So, what do I do? I start complaining to God and whining and telling him that I am worried about money. I asked Him to provide me a way to pay my bills. Well, yesterday at work, one of my previous teachers came in and said that she was gonna be out of town for eleven days after Christmas and she will pay me $ 20 a day to come and feed her dogs and leave. I have to drive to Gainesville, but that $220 will pay my car insurance. Isn't God good?

Props to Kelly Adams... 3 A's and 2 B's and on the Dean's list at North Georgia College and State University. I am so proud of her. She is awesome.

Going to go study for my Stats final, go to Wal-mart with Kel and pick out my present for the InnerG party, then go see Newsong and David Glen for Free... life is great!!

Brrrr... It's beginning to feel a lot like Christmas!!!

Hey Guys!! Well, I have one more final on Friday and my career at Gainesville College will be over. It's kind of sad, yet the feeling of accomplishment is great. I don't know if I will be able to continue to write in my blog, since I don't have Internet access at my house, but I will try to post as often as I can.

As we were watching Charlie Brown's Christmas last night, I was reminded of the real meaning of Christmas. I have always been big on buying presents, even if I don't have the money, and giving to others, which is all well and good, but sometimes I neglect to see or recognize the real reason for the season. Last night was a good reminder of my priorities and my mind set. Well, Heather, you have the cold weather, now we just need the snow. I love this time of year... wearing hats and scarves, drinking hot chocolate and eating gingerbread cookies, wrapping presents and decorating the tree.. Christmas is definitely my favorite Holiday.

Guess what I am getting for Christmas? The Golden Girls First Season Box Set.. I am so excited. I love that show. It is hilarious. I am still looking for a job, so if anyone hears anything, please let me know. I am going to hand out resumes and job hunt tomorrow, study for a STATS test and hopefully go to the Newsong/David Glen Concert at Blackshear Place tomorrow night!!! Hope to talk to you all soon.

Moving On!!!

Have you ever noticed that life is full of change? You stay in one place for awhile, get comfortable and then have to move on to the next stage? That is how I feel right now. As the tears roll down my cheeks, I have come to the horrifying realization that next week is my last one at Gainesville College. Most of you would probably be saying Woo-Hoo, as you would enjoy the fact that you are moving on to bigger and better things. But not me. I have been at Gainesville College for four years, I am here more than I am home and everyone here is like my family. The teachers, students, faculty and staff... even the custodians... I have gotten to know them all so well. Today was my last official BSU as a Gainesville College student and everyone kept telling me how much I meant to them and how much they are going to miss them. I hope that I have made an impact on people's lives in the past four years. I hope that everyone knows how much they have meant in my life as well. They don't even know the half of it.. I am going to miss them way more than they are going to miss me. I know that change and moving on is all a part of growing up, but it hurts. Everything good in my life always somehow gets taken away from me and I am left feeling all alone. I know some of you may think I am being overdramatic, but it's the truth. My last week of working out, my last week of sitting in the Student Center at lunch and talking and laughing with the gang, my last day of waving at familiar faces as I go down the hall, my last day of fighting to find a good parking space that is close to my classes, my last day of going to the Spanish lab and working on projects in the ACTT Center.. the list goes on and on.

I have no idea what my future holds. I have no job, haven't applied to North Georgia yet and have no idea how I will pay to go there when I do. I am scared to death to move away from home. Even though I am not home a lot, I depend on my family for a lot of things. I am so scared and so uncertain about my future. I know that God's ways are bigger than mine, but I hate change and this week is going to be really hard for me. Just pray for me, please!!! I love you all. You rock my face off!!!

Forgiveness

I was talking to a friend the other day about forgiveness. She is having a hard time forgiving one of our other friends and letting go of the things that she did to her. She wanted to know my opinion on the matter. Well, we all know that I am very opiniated and have something to say about everything. I told her about my mom and how for a long time, I had a hard time forgiving myself for things I had said and done to my mom to hurt her, before she passed away and now there is nothing I can do about it and no way to fix it. I told her to imagine the worse thing that anyone has ever done, said or thought to hurt her. This thing is nothing in comparision to what we do to hurt Jesus everyday when we sin. Jesus forgives us, so we are commanded to forgive one another. She also asked me if after you forgive someone, is it ok to still hurt about what they did to you. I told her yes. Jesus doesn't expect us to just forget about the hurt, even if we forgave the person. We are human and our flesh will still hurt, no matter what. We just have to figure out a way to deal with it and move on. If you have unforgiveness in your heart and you hold grudges against others, then you will lead a very miserable life.

On another note, David said that he enjoyed some parts of InnerG, but not others. He said that some of the things Johnny said were very insightful, but others were too preachy for his tastes. He didn't like the fact that we stand up and clap during worship time. He said that overall he is glad that he came, but he probably won't be back, unless it is strictly a social event, like the Christmas party!!! Oh well, I have done all I can do. I have exhausted all of my resources to plant the seed to allow him to get saved. It is now completely in God's hands. All I have left to give is to love him and show him Jesus through my actions, which is what I have been doing and will continue to do. Just continue to pray for him and for his heart and his soul.

To Forgive or Not Forgive.. That is the Question!!

I had a very interesting talk with a friend today about forgiveness. She is having a hard time forgiving someone who hurt her a lot and she wanted my opinion on it. Well, God has been showing me lately that I need to watch what I say to people and how I act towards them, because you never know when those words will come back to bite you in the bum. Anyways, I told her to think of every horrible thing she has ever, done, said or thought and to remember that God has forgiven her of all these things. Nothing that anyone can do to you can be as bad as when we sin against God. If God can forgive us, we should be able to forgive others. He never said that it would be easy, but we must do it. Then she wanted to know if it was ok to forgive somone and it still hurt... ABSOLUTELY!! Jesus didn't say to forgive and forget, He just said forgive. Being human, it is impossible to forget that someone has done us wrong, however we should forgive them and move on. Don't hold grudges or be unforgiving or you will be miserable. Believe me, I know!!! One of the custodians heard us talking and she said " You're a christian? No wonder you are so sweet, so am I." It was a great feeling. These are the random thoughts for today. And Heather, I am with you on the snow part. I want to be able to wear the pretty scarf that Kelly gave me for Christmas.

Here are my top Five Christmas Songs in No Particular Order:

"Winter Wonderland"
"Christmas Shoes"
"My Grown up Christmas List"
"O Holy Night"
Rockin Around the Christmas Tree"

See you tonight at InnerG.

Evil In This World

I always knew that there were thieves and vandals at Gainesville College, and everywhere in the world, but it never sunk it completely until yesterday. David and I were in the fitness center working out. I had put my purse in my bookbag in the locker in the locker room and put my clothes on top. After working out, I go to change clothes. I notice that my purse is out of my bookbag and sitting on top of it. My check book, which always stays in my wallet, is sitting on top of my bookbag. My purse is in a mess and my socks are at the bottom of it. I freak out (which is what I do in situations like that. I looked through my wallet. All my checks were still there and my credit card(Thank God!!). The only thing missing was a $10 bill which was going to be my Olive Garden money for girls night out on Saturday. The money wasn't the issue. It was the concept. I mean, for four years I have been going to GC and have never felt insecure or unsafe, until yesterday. In the past semester, artwork and patio furniture have been vandalized, cellphones and money have been stolen and I found out yesterday that two cars were stolen. The thieves stole the keys out of the locker room. Used the clicker to figure out which car it was, and got in and drove away. We live in a sick and depraved world, I am sorry to say.

More bad news... My great aunt, who is 78, lives alone and is crippled fell yesterday and broke her hip and the rod that was already in her leg. She is having surgery tomorrow, so please keep her in your prayers.

Despite all this, God is good all the time. He puts a song of praise into this heart of mine. He is the alpha, the omega, the beginning and the end.