Slow Motion

Heather's lesson on parent-child relationships really got me to thinking last night. I wish that I could rewind my life back about six years ago. I wish I could go back to before I found out my mom had cancer. There are so many things that I would have done differently and so many things that I would have said to her that I didn't. Everything happened so fast. We found out she had cancer in January of 1999. The fourth of July she went in the hospital, was put on a ventilator in ICU and three weeks later on July 24, 1999, she passed away. I wish I would have shown her and told her how much I valued and loved her. I struggled with guilt and resentment for a long time. It wasn't until recently that I realized that my mom knew how much I loved her.. I listened to God when he told me she wasn't saved. I talked to her and God used a family friend to lead her to him. So, now I have the satisfaction of knowing that she will be spending eternity with Jesus. That is the most comforting feeling ever.

Now, things are different with my dad and stepmom. My daddy and I aren't as close as we were when my mom was alive. I have grown up a lot and learned more than I could ever explain to you. However, I do value my dad and my step mom. We hang out and talk. Most of the time we butt heads and disagree, but I respect their opinions and they respect mine. Family is very important to me, as well as friends. Talk to you later!!!