Brokeness

Hey Guys!!! In lieu of Heather Anne, I decided to do my blog in her favorite color today. So, you know that song, Brokeness? Well, it has never been more important in my life than this past week. I have been struggling a lot lately with certain things in my life: Worry about the future, job situations, goals I haven't reached, etc. So, I was at my women's Bible Study group this past Friday night. I had only slept for an hour the night before because I had a six hour long nightmare. To make a long story short, it was about being trapped and not finding familiar people or surroundings. I was crying out for help and no one could help me. I felt so alone and scared. I was telling the ladies about my dream and talking about how I feel it related to my life. All of a sudden, six years of junk that I thought I had dealt with and moved on, suddenly sprang out of me and I burst into tears. It was definitely spiritual warfare and mass confusion. I talked for about 30 minutes about everything I was thinking and going through. All the ladies laid hands on me and prayed over me. That night, I went home and knelt at my bed. I cried out to God and asked him to help me and he did. I slept like a baby that night. I actually had fun on Saturday at my Defensive Driving Class and this past week has been amazing. Even on Tuesday and Wednesday when I had a stomach bug and felt like crap, God was still rocking my face off. I became broken and vulnerable to Him and to my friends and He released one stronghold that I had in my life for years and is slowly releasing the other one. God is awesome!! I will post more later.